just keep swimming

Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same. Moving forward and letting go can be the hardest thing you'll ever have to do. Walking away from something or someone you love is the toughest decision. But sometimes, you have to be selfish and do whats right for you. Whether its walking away from the one you love, or deciding to leave a sport that you've played forever. Letting go can open up more doors, and lead you into more oppertunities.

I'm in class and just thinking. Why do people get so mad easily? What's the point. Sorry I didn't text you back, big deal, it's not gonna be a legit conversation anyways. I think its dumb how people hide what they want to say behind a computer or cell phone. If you have a problem with me or someone else, say it to their face. I think it's rediculous that peole can sit in class like everything is fine but sends me a text or facebook message that night saying how bad of a person I am. Don't be mad at stupid things, life is to short to be mad or hold grudges. Live your life, and beh happy with your life. If you don't like me, stay away from me, it's not my problem.

UGHHH!!!

I love talking with my advisory, yesterday we had everyone right down how rachel's challenge impacted them. We didn't share them, we read them to ourselves and the girl and guy who wrote the best entry got a "I make a difference" braclet. It was cool to explain the idea of the bracelet, and i hope they pass it on. A couple kids had some really cool ideas to help raise money for the friends of rachel club. one person said to sell journals, have everyone get a journal to right down their goals, their dreams, and their thoughts. Another person said make a paper chain, every link or peice of paper could be sold for a dollar, and we could try to make it really long. The kids are really starting to open up and I'm really enjoying what they have to say.

"There's tears and there's fears and there's losses and crosses to bearAnd sometimes the best we can do is just to whisper a prayerAnd press on becauseThere's so much to live for and so much to love"

Rachel's challenge touched me yet again. And I'm mad at myself for not keeping up with my blog because it's like a journal. I want to help people, and I wanna help myself. The world is such a beautiful world and I wish everyone could see that.

bully

Why is it so hard to stand up to a bully? I have recently been bullied, and let me just say it was hard for me to say what needed to be said. My mom told me to just stand up for myself, but now a days its easy just to hide the fact people are hurting you, and ignore the pain. I think a lot of people walk around Norton High School with a fake smile on their face because they're to afraid to show their real emotions. It's so easy to confront people through technology, where people can say what they want because they can't see the persons face. If people were straight up about things life would be so much easier, but people aren't. So how can we change this? Stickers and buttons, coming together showing unity is one way, but what about the people who take it as a joke? I think we need to take a stand just like we take a stand against substance abuse. Have assemblies with people who have been affected by bullying, and have peer guidance to people who need it. Lets stand up against bullies together.

start a chain reaction..

We Can't Forget These Are The Days

October 13th 2009
Why does the truth have to hurt? It's so difficult to say exactly what needs to be said, and it kills us to hurt people. I mean people change, and you want to just say something, stop the world and just go back to what used to be, but you can't and it sucks. I wanna tell my brother so many things, but I can't push him away but i try to bring things up but its so difficult. Its good though, right? I'd rather be honest than live with a burden. It's so hard to see how the truth hurts.

if you can look in my eyes
and tell me we'll be alright
and promise never to leave
you just might make me believe

October 8th 2009
So today was the day we've all been working for. I feel so proud to be apart of task force and know all these new people who want to fight for the same cause as me. Looking back now, I wish I did more in the first two years of my high school experience. I got close with teachers, made new friends, and lived life a little bit more. Today at intervention it made me so happy to see all these faces willing to help make a change. My mom and I talk about everything, so when I came home to tell her all about it, I could tell she was proud. Yes she told me good, now keep your grades up, but she's proud of me at this moment, and that's all I care about. I asked my mom to wear my Taylor braclet today, and she asked me why, and I told her that I want people to know that me and you are close, and I know you'll always be able to call if I ever need it. and when I said I was going to bed she said..."one person can make a difference." and I walked upstairs and said, "and it might just start a chain reaction"

live for today because yesterdays gone and tomorrows never promised